Saturday, October 29, 2011

as the sun sets on another week....

i am grateful for giving myself the permission to breakdown



those who know know i am a strong woman who takes on a lot and always put others first

this past 2 weeks have been hard for me... i have put far to much pressure on myself and the cracks are showing... the list has been endless.... sick child, sleepless nights, the death of a friend, a separation, family issues, running the auction, dealing with impatient people, dealing with absolute tragedy at work, an increased workload at the hospital and no more hours to do it in, work meetings, missy melly orders through the roof, emails piling up, my own sickness that has led to terrible pain in my joints, pressure from friends and colleagues to deal with an issue, abuse, threats, a feeling of giving up, on top of my regular week which currently doesn't have much spare time in it

there obviously has been a lot of good as well but this week the pressure of it all has caused me to crack, caused me to have a little meltdown... i would normally feel bad about this but this week i have given myself permission to do it and not feel guilty and for that i am grateful

shan

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6 comments:

Sarah @fignutmum said...

Gosh it sounds like you have had your hands full plus more.

I am glad you have allowed yourself to have a moment. As sometimes a meltdown/cry is a good way to let a lot of that stress go.

Hope things improve for you

E. said...

Wow. You have such a lot of things to deal with at the moment. I hope your child is better and that some of the pressure eases soon.

I broke down a little while ago under way less pressure than you have. I must admit once I'd let go a bit (okay a lot) I felt better. I hope you do too.

Nic Wood said...

Huge hugs Shan - sometimes you really do have to let yourself fall apart a little to get back on track. I hope you have a good network of friends and family to help you through all that is going on in your life at the moment - it sounds like a huge couple of weeks, emotionally and physically.
May you find the inner strength to enable yourself to work through it all and come out the other side even stronger
Nic xxx

babygalah said...

Not that you need it - but you always have my permission !

Hope you are having a relaxing weekend and that the next week is a whole lot nicer than last week.

and, besides, you'll get to see me !

Luv Dee x

wrappedinfabric said...

Its all a test hun....all to see what you can cope with!!! And guess what you are coming out the other side on top of it all so CONGRATULATIONS on allowing healing time and loving yourself enough to heal successfully xxx Friend forever in your heart xxx

Maxabella said...

How could anyone NOT crack under that lot, Shan. Melt away, I say!!!

I hope things are looking up for you. x

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